Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

"Am amazed at how cold dat dude Rithesh is. He lookz az if some one has stuck a hot rod up his ass.", said Paul amidst several snickers. "Ya know whatz wrong wid him? I am an exchange student ya know.", Paul asked the guys. They were having a party by the waterfall. Paul was taken in as he spend a lot of money on booze. Most of them were in a state of blissful stupor. "His girlfriend died...", said Aaron. "How?" A lot of laughs greeted Paul's question. And a big fuck you from Aaron. "I think Aaron had a crush on her.", said Amal, which was greeted by fist on his face. The mood changed as a drunken fight ensued... Paul and Prajod carried the drunken guys to their rooms. "Prajod, honestly dude. how did Rithesh's babe die? AIDS?", asked Paul. "No, no. She used to be one of those brainy girls who wanted to show off by her academics. She went to the library to get some references done. She was irate with our Amal after...

The remains of the sunset was blurred. He realised he was crying. As he wiped his tears he looked at his hand band, 'Live Strong' it said. Her last gift. He smiled a salty smile and left for his room. "Hey Rithesh!", he heard someone calling him. It was his friends. 'Or the so called ones...', he thought ruefully. "Hi dudes. Whats up?", he went near them. "We are going for a trip to the falls. Coming? Some quality time with booze.", asked of them. "No man. Can't. Got some pending stuff to be done.", replied Rithesh. "Awww, come on. You need a break dude. Or are you still in abstinence?", asked Prajod. "Not that.Sorry I...I can't come.", said Rithesh as he walked away. "The bastards are still laughing about me when I am not there. Fuck them!", he said to himself. His friends looked on. They had a puzzled expression on their faces. "The poor guy! He was one good badboy...", remarked Ab...

'I think I will go to the beach today.', Rithesh told himself. It didn't really matter. It was the same everyday. He goes to the beach around 7 in the evening. Every evening. Couples were leaving as he arrived. "Girls going back to the hostel", he told himself and stared longingly at a couple parting. 'First week in their relationship I guess,' he sighed and recalled those first days with.... "What yo mumblin' dude?", he started when he heard a voice behind him. 'Of all people it had to be this fool, thought Rithesh.' "Nothing," he replied and gave a forced smile at Paul, his classmate. "Ah! The dawn light fadin'. Da time for yo poetz, eh?", a semi question by Paul. Rithesh smiled trying really hard to suppress his irritation. 'The stupid accent of the sucker and its dusk.', thought Rithesh as he bade good bye to Paul with a few mumblings. "Gud Bye matie! Waitin' for the bloody piece of work...

This is my 99th post. I have read this introspection tag in various blogs. So I thought I would do the same for my 100th post. But then I have got a nice surprise of sorts to celebrate my 100th post. So this would be number 99. ;-) 1. I am a single child. I have got all the good and bad aspects from being one. But I am very close to my two cousins who fill the void as younger brothers. 2. Till I was 10 we lived with my maternal Grandmother and aunts at her house. All around us where our relations and I never felt lonely. Being the first born male in two branches of my mother’s family meant I was regarded as special kid and still it is so. 3. I was raised mainly by my aunts since my mother worked in Kollam at that time. The biggest influence in my life was my Grandma. My life hasn’t been quite the same since she passed away. 4. I used to be an ultra buji in school. I often go on an egoistical spree saying I am very intelligent, but it is quite true. I never needed to sit and study as s...

Hi everybody. A merry Xmas to all of you. My good friend Hafeez asked me to blog about my year and I have done the same in the Fellowship blog. Please read and do comment. ciao

Shall we meet the President? *drumrolls* The pending tour report is coming this fall!!! (too dramatic?) 

Today, err, yesterday (its 12:21 AM now!) I happened to get to Zee TV while channel surfing. I don’t watch these shit but Asianet seems to have jumbled the order and Zee TV resides in the position of VH1, my favourite channel. I was lucky to chance upon there or I would have missed a wonderful spectacle which would last a lifetime! It was a movie climax, the hero is someone I have no idea of and the lead lady seems familiar but can’t exactly point who she is. Anyway to our spectacle. Imagine this situation: Hero is hanging by his fingertips (nails?) at a height of about 250 metres (a 50 storey building). Where exactly? The ledge? Nope! There is a rope, yup a white fibre rope I double checked, hanging from the top floor one huge building to another attached to poles. The buildings are incidentally some 200m apart. What is the use of that rope? Hang Clothes??? And how did they put it? Next: There is cute 3 year old girl hanging on to our hero’s back crying! Talk about the edge of cutenes...

I am posting this from our Linux class. I just happened to be one of the instruments who crashed the system. We were taught some stuff about bash scripting and how to run scripts at the start of a login. Me and Jackie made a couple of scripts. And i made an iterative statement "Kill Gates" display for 20 times. Then some absolute idiot modified a core file bashrc and the whole system crashed. I was the prime suspect and actually I was going to write a script which would have pinged 200 computers and displayed the results at the start of login. Well, for those who don't know, pinging means checking the availability of a system over the network and it takes about 20 seconds to ping one system.Imagine pinging 200 systems, takes about 7 minutes. Not only that several users will be trying that at the same time! So imagine the chaos that would be created... Things are still not rectified. Atleast sir won't ask me to sit in front in the server anymore ;-)

666? Well, not quite! My unlucky number is 13. A classical straight forward one, right. It actually harbors more than just the conventional fear of that number. In fact I love 111 another unlucky number.  Though it may seem cranky to some people, I believe in numerology and the power of numbers. But I don’t quite agree with changing names to change luck. Yeah, next they are going to change their father for luck. Back to our point. Why exactly this post now? This is the 94th post in this blog.  9+4=13! Another irony ismy university roll number is 013! When I got the number I had a sinking feeling. And that is what is happening I am a sinking ship in my academics. The major contribution is myself and a lot has to do with luck. I should have been 12 my lucky number if Anil Sony who never intended to complete the course and dropped out after the first year did not come to the college at all. And incidentally Naveen likes 13 and he would have been 13. Everybody would have...

Third post of the day? Well, the first had been a lyrics and second a poll. So I think there is space for one more. Today was the IRMA entrance test. For those who don’t know: IRMA is Institute of Rural Management, Anand. It is headed by Varghese Kurien, the man behind White revolution in India and aims at creation of managers suited for the development of rural India. Nitin did not apply for the test and Divakar did not write it. So I was alone in this battle. I went there a little early. I have this compulsive disorder of reaching places early. I absolutely hate being late but I tolerate others being late. Hmmm, I was close to tears the one day I became late at school. No one scolded or anything but I wanted to cry because I was late. Pretty lame, eh? This time though I was a bit too early. Centre was the Pattom Girls Higher Secondary School and on reaching there I saw nobody. I double checked the hall ticket. Then a man asked whether I was here for the test. I affirmed and he told m...

You Are a Classic Martini You area sophisticated drinker, who knows that simple quality is over-rated. You're a knowledgeable drunk, but sometimes you're a know-it-all when you're blasted. You should never: Drink and gossip. You tend to forget who's standing right behind you! Your ideal party: Has a real bartender. But no one mixes a better drink than you. Your drinking soulmates: those with a Chocolate Martini personality Your drinking rivals: those with a Margarita Martini personality What Flavor Martini Are You? I am posting this because I liked the questions in the poll. Very reasonable and thoughtful. A real change from the usual crappy ones.

Imagine Imagine there's no heaven, It's easy if you try, No hell below us, Above us only sky, Imagine all the people living for today... Imagine there's no countries, It isn’t hard to do, Nothing to kill or die for, No religion too, Imagine all the people living life in peace... Imagine no possessions, I wonder if you can, No need for greed or hunger, A brotherhood of man, Imagine all the people Sharing all the world... You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one, I hope some day you'll join us, And the world will live as one. Written by John Lennon I just heard this song for the first time. It is often said to be the best song by Lennon. Now I see why it is. Wonderful peace of work! (Spelling mistake is intentional). An instant entry into my all time favourites. A solution to heal the world?

Christmas Specials keep on coming... Your Christmas is Most Like: Miracle on 34th Street Sweet and caring, Christmas is about helping for you. While Santa may not exist, you try to share his spirit. What Movie Is Your Christmas Most Like?

Wow! Some response to my previous post! Well, now I think about it I was feeling quite low at that point of time. I had my best friend calling me up and asking whether there was anything terribly wrong! I just read Arti's blog and she qouted from somewhere "When in pain Blog!" May seem a bit lame but how true! I think that blogging has opened an all new avenue to vent out the steam. For me, I have been discovering quite an unknown side of myself through my blog. I am the first to admit that I never really chat upto a person in a face to face conversation unless I am very close or I am mad at that person (usually teachers :-D). The more deplorable is my skill on the telephone. A couple of hours back I chatted with a friend on Sree's mobile and she remarked that it was our first phone conversation even after being friends. Hmmm, how true! Not just with friends whom I know for 4-5 years, but with my close family too I have this problem running out of words on the p...

How many times do you get the feeling that someone has screwed you/let you down? I am a paranoid person, though people who know me would go "What!", deep down inside I am one hell of a paranoid. What prompted me to write this article? Well, I got an exam tomorrow and I have been let down by a good friend of mine. I won't divulge any details because the guy is good friend and I am sure he didn't mean to screw me and may be I am just pissed off right now and is not thinking clearly (though I doubt it). Not just this incident, also some other thoughts of mine and action/words of others have been boiling inside my head for a long time and now the steam has to be let out. That brings about the question. What is screwing then? It need not be planned and/or intentional. Fairly unintentional things that you say or do can screw a person or let him down or make him feel bad. Now I am not say that I am Mother Teresa (or is it Father Dominic?) and I do only good things and don...

After a series of gruelling exams, a completely broken me visited the British Library to find some solace to my aching soul in the vicinity of my best friends: Books... I found a Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy compendium. I immediately grabbed it. I had taken it earlier and finished the first two books and then some idiot reserved and I had to relinquish the book. I was in a festive spirit after getting the book. Alas, it was not to last! I was informed that the book was reserved (which SOB did this again???) and I was left broken once again. Many interesting books were there . But I simple didn't have the heart to read them. My attention went to the lowest racks. I took that book, once again. Espedair Street by Iain.M.Banks. Whenever I am feeling a bit down and I am in library invariably I take this book. No, it is not any chicken soup book, but a novel about a rock star (?). You may be asking, "How the hell do you find that calming, dude???" Well, there are many reas...

Christmas Special Blog Tests! You Are Blitzen Always in good spirits, you're the reindeer who loves to party down with Santa. Why You're Naughty: You're always blitzed on Christmas Eve, while flying! Why You're Nice: You mix up a mean eggnog martini. Which of Santa's Reindeer Are You? You Were a Swan You are a spiritual soul who sees into the future. You are also good at interpreting dreams - those of yourself and others. What Animal Were You In a Past Life?

Finally I have decided to have my own tech blog . I think and I hope it would motivate me in the drudgery of the days of our project work. Sharing technical knowledge has always been my passion. I hope to do the same with the journal. Why am I not using this blog? This is turning out to be a glance in to my world and my life. It would be better if I don’t introduce too much of information in to the blog as such and I am sure I won’t be able to do justice to it that way. Anyway, don’t mix business with pleasure! ;-D

I have been working on Ubuntu Linux for a couple of days now. I think it is time to post my thoughts on this wonderful piece of software. Ubuntu literally means: 'For humanity'. This is an African word. It is made by Canonical Ltd. based in the Isle of Man. For more info just look into the Wikipedia. Prologue I really noticed Ubuntu for the first time at Santosh's place when I saw the original CD lying there. Fox told me about their free shipping thing. Ubuntu gives away Cd's of the latest version for free. That includes the shipping cost as well. There are various options available to order. Just go to the site and register to see them. I ordered for 15 CD pack; the smallest available. We can track our requests at the site and they sent it to the shipping company on 7th November and usually 4-6 weeks takes for delivery. I got my package three days back. The package was very safe and CD packs were placed inside a bubble wrapper. Looks The version is 5.10 and called the...

The street dog ,( please forgive me i cudnt find the permalink its the archive page of that month. scroll down for the article ) about whom had written earlier has been missing for a few days now. At first I didn't take much notice but recently I have been dreading the possibility of it being trampled under a some vehicle. This feeling was heightened by a couple of decapitated cats I had seen. I was chatting with my mom about the dog and she told that it was taken away. Some CITU guys had lured it into the backside of a cargo auto by placing some food in it. They closed the door and then drove it of to somewhere. I had grown close to it and really the first dog I have been friends with. It had a human face and eyes, atleast I thought so, and never really barked. It liked me very much and hung around our house most of the time. My mother, who was very apprehensive of the dog had grown to like it. He used to get up and stand beside the gate when it saw my parents. When I came, usual...

Scorpio durantham!!!! Originally uploaded by naveen t s . Naveen posted this in the Flickr page. The vehicle in question was hired by the "kidilams" in our college to go and have a jolly time. Some jolly time indeed! They went at some 120 Kph and swerve and hit the dust. Fortunately(?) none of then were hurt. Only Physically! They were set back by some 1.5 lakhs (if I remember correctly). Rich Dad, Wrong people, Bad driving. What an excellent combination!

Wheew! Atlast an exam where I hope to pass more than dread to fail. Just finished the microprocessor criti exams. But I had the same if not a more jubilant reaction the last time around. But, this is criti so I hope the university shows some meharbaani. The last 5 exams where disasters and thefirst time I am going to write the exams with 4 hall tickets. I will have a mercy exam of CHD unless the university guy decides that I am going to marry his daughter. The supply Compilers was a big disaster. Though everyone said they sucked and said they would fail, I suspect the suckers of scraping through. Good for them and I hope they get through. As far as DB went. Well it was a really wondeful experience. You have to some experiences like this to spice up your life. When I got the question paper, the question in my head was 'How the hell am I going to score 10 marks in this?' Well,I brought my creative side out and wrote 8 short stories for the short answer questions (total fictio...

Your Hair Should Be Blue Wild, brilliant, and out of control. You're a risk taker with an eye to the future. What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color? Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility. What's Your Ideal Relationship? The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of ch...

You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace. You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions. You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected. It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional. You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others. While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well. At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything. You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams. You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment. What Temperment Are You?

After some hard work for 2 hours I have finally completed the blog revamp. Had to make some changes to the template provided by Caz ! But if you people have any suggestions or liked the old template better please let me know. I think it is a bit dark. ciao

Its been 4 months since I have taken Asianet connection. My downloads have clocked around 10 GB by now. but most of it has been music and a lot of entertainment stuff. Also some ebooks. I have always liked cartoons (may be a return to innocence?) and documentaries. I have been looking for some serious stuff to download (yeah! cartoons are serious for me!) and have found some toon torrents. But they are prohibitively big ranging from 1.5 GB-5 GB. By cartoons I don't mean the new age manga cartoons like Pokemon and others. I like the oldies like Yogi Bear etc and better still, the short cartoons, the forgotten ones. My prayers have been answered. Enter The Internet Archive ! This site contains the out of copyright works and works based on creative commons license. There are a lot of stuff here. Cartoons, newsreels, old movies, documentaries, ebooks, audio etc in a variety of formats. I am downloading some 15 stuffs from here. A must visit for anyone with similar interests as moi.

Disclaimer: The following article involves a topic which is not appropriate for family reading. I have made it as clean as possible. Ladies and sissy boys, if you stumble upon these places, at least don’t reveal your enlightening source. I don’t think I can handle being roughed up by pissed off brothers. These are the places in a typical guy’s PC. Some conditions apply though. 1. No nosy sisters proficient in the intricacies of a PC. (Also add younger brothers and rarely elder ones) 2. PC is untouched by parents and elder relations. 3. PC in a hostel or friends living together. Many other stipulations may be added… Where to find them? Inside folders and folders and folders of Windows, Turbo C++, Office etc or may be even in the desktop of the bolder ones (I know at least one guy ;-)) The common names? Files may be having extensions dll (the most popular one), cpp, sys etc and they have sizes in excess of 1 MB (usually 50+) The folder names may be bizarre but it really makes sense to th...