Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

While searching for some, um, ‘stuff’ in Desitorrents , I came across the documentary section. I looked into it curiously and found some great stuff. Out of which one I downloaded instantly. It is a short movie by NFDC (National Film Development Council) titled, “Ek, Anek aur Eketa” (One, Many and Oneness). The film would be familiar those who have seen Doordarshan some 10-15 years back. It is an animation about the strength of togetherness and harmony. It really brought in a wave of nostalgic emotions to me. I loved these kind of stuff and still do. The animation may be simplistic and drab but the emotion adds a lot of colour to it. I really feel that NFDC should dig up these forgotten treasures and put it up for download. At least they could put it as torrent download and there may be a lot of willing seeders if I am not mistaken. Embrace the medium of torrents and use it for some good purpose rather than simply downloading movies, songs, games, porn etc. The university exams start t...

I had thought of tagging last time around, but I forgot after that looong post... So here goes... Me tag... kickassso U wanted a tag? u got it Duttan ( I know he did in this one...but still) all the people in the fellowship blog Haris (this guy hasn't blogged for a long time and it wud be interesting...:-) and anyone else who wants to do it... ciao

Disclaimer: I have absolutely nothing against my parents. I love them more than anything in this world and the reciprocal is more than that. These are just my take on the views of most parents and sometimes I think my parents share the same due to the intense pressure from their peers. 10. Thou shall study your lessons daily and go to the best tuition centre in the town. 9. Thou shall listen to melodious Mallu and Hindi music. Your taste may go up to the extent of listening to pop songs like that of Westlife, BSB etc and like the songs liked by your peers. Hardrock and Metal are strict no-nos. 8. Thou shall see good mallu movies and hindi movies. Only the hyped up english movies shall be seen. 7. Sports and games are essential only in theory. Thou shall take part in it at your free time and your vacation. 6. Reading is a good habit. Only if you score a lot of marks in your studies and you have set aside some time for reading. Thou shall read only goody goody books or the hyped books in...

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Here I am badly mauled by a kitty giving a lifelong hatred towards the feline kind. CAT was horrible and more horrible was the conflicting keys of our own TIME and Careerlauncher(does anybody go there?) Anyway after being completely put off for a couple of days and 'blowing' away my frustrations I have picked up the pieces and stopped 'subliming' my self. Now the realisation has struck. I have 3 exams to write next week in 3 days, 2 of which I have absolutely no idea of and 1 is a must win situation (criti paper from s5) and another 1 I know some things but I have a history of flunking papers of my favourite subjects and teachers. To compound the issue the weekend is gone as IIFT exam is there. I shouldnt have applied for it. Hell, what to do now? Has to get some studies up and running and so far it is refusing to start. In fact I am not even playing games, reading or listening to music much these days, which are a staple diet during exams. When I put my head straig...

The day of deliverance is here! On Nov 20 almost 2 Lakh are going to write the toughest management entrance examination in the world. I am one of them. Hopes are pinned on me by my parents and I am responsible for nurturing it in order to escape from other failures I had encountered. Well, am i prepared for it? The short answer is NO. I don't know the long answer but it will also border on some shade of no as well. The prep for thequantitative section of the paper has been abysmal to say the least. I just lost my drive mid way through the preparations. I cannot pin why, though. The data analysis and logic part is also pretty ill-prepared and my logic never seems to find rest with the real answers :-(. I always thought I could score on verbal section, but the recent performance is not very promising. Earlier I used to score some 36-38 marks and out of it 30 used to be verbal alone! Needless to say quant would be a perfect anda. Nowadays, the score remains the same but I tend to sc...

On 18th  November, Thiruvananthapuram goes to poll for the Lok Sabaha bye-election. This one is to fill the void created by the death of P.K.V a wonderful man but a rather useless M.P. A person can’t even take his nap peacefully now. The blaring cacophony of the speakers screaming at the people to vote for his candidate. In the end the public says, “Ok! Ok! We will vote, will you shut that bloody thing off?” It is almost comical the announcement jeeps of two candidates coming from the opposite directions and creating one hell of a noise and in the end it almost seems like this. “Vote for the Sickle…vote for Sivakumar” ”Remember the symbol for Sivakumar is…the poor proletariat!”   “React against the atrocities committed by UDF…So vote for UDF” “Remember Indian National Congress is a party that helped India achieve independence…So please vote for the sickle…and don’t vote…on the day of the polls!” Now let’s see the candidates. First of all V.S.Sivakumar of I.N.C. He i...

Today was indeed a horrible day. Sessionals came out and under sessionals for twp subjects.Much on the expected lines but DBMS I scored 25 out of 50. Now I never deserved that. Though I was a royal pain in her ass through out this semester. To think of it I scored the highest marks in university exams for the subject,Operating Systems, this teacher took last year. Very difficult to mount this terrain. I went into an unusual but expected trip of depression in the afternoon. Not good. I should be upping my spirits now. Pretty important stuff to do in the next few months. I was relieved only in the evening after watching 'Crusades' on History channel. Don't know why but war can sometimes soothe your soul. And as you know more sorrow after I connected to net. All this started right in the morning. Usually mom wakes me up in the morning. She calls me leave and I go downstairs at my leisure. Today though she waited for me and seemed hesitant. I thought to myself, "Thats Odd!...

I am huge WWE fan and I am can say that without any shame. Though I am not able to follow the programme on TV, I track it through the Internet. I hadn't checked on the fan site rajah.com for 3 days. I was shell shocked when I visited the page. It said Eddie Guerrero was dead. He was 38. One of the best in both wrestling capacity and entertainment factor. One of the few guys that made me laugh out loud with his antics. I am too numb to say more. my condolenses goes out to his wife and two young daughters. Eddie you were the man...Viva La Raza

Children’s Day. The birthday of our first Prime Minister Jawaharlal Nehru or Chacha Nehru as affectionately as he was called. I realised this was children’s day only in the afternoon while watching Headlines Today. I don’t really recall any celebration we used to have in school. I think our house activities coincided with this event. Being a very conservative school we celebrated these national events in a much disciplined manner. I think later on it became associated with our Science Expo. Really, the school days seemed so long and seems so long ago. These four years in engineering has stormed pass me. Just as our Principal had said in her opening address to us. I have very fond memories of my childhood. The best life any person could get. Loved by many and many to love. Still it’s somewhat like that but reaching adulthood has exposed some things I wish would have stayed buried. The pressure of reaching adulthood removes a lot of charm and illusions from relationships. Well, whatever ...

I thought I would make the blog useful by including some info that people care instead of the incessant bitching that I am now familiarised with. Noted British science fiction novelist Arthur.C.Clarke has been awarded with the highest honour in Sri Lanka, ‘Sri Lankashreshta’. He resides in Sri Lanka presently. An apt time for me to take his book from the British Library, ‘Garden of Rama’ co-written by Gentry Lee.. I haven’t read any of his books, even though the first book I had taken from the British Library was his, which I never read. Getting a bit confused. Did I read any of his books? Not sure. Has to check out… Another news. This one most of the people may be unaware of. Intel has purchased 65% share in Grisoft. The makers of AVG antivirus. A move to include more virus protection at the hardware level? I don’t think the PC Hardware King Duttan is aware of this. (As of writing this article) :-). I am very grateful to Kickasso for recommending QCD player. I had my experience with...

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I think it pretty much sums up my philosophy in life. The bad side is (?) I am a bit too hedonistic. You scored as Utilitarianism . Your life is guided by the principles of Utilitarianism : You seek the greatest good for the greatest number. �The said truth is that it is the greatest happiness of the greatest number that is the measure of right and wrong.� --Jeremy Bentham �Whenever the general disposition of the people is such, that each individual regards those only of his interests which are selfish, and does not dwell on, or concern himself for, his share of the general interest, in such a state of things, good government is impossible.� --John Stuart Mill More info at Arocoun's Wikipedia User Page... Utilitarianism 90% Existentialism 80% Hedonism 75% Justice (Fairness) 65% Strong Egoism 60% Kantianism 55% Divine Command 50% Apathy 25% Nihilism 10% What philosophy do you follow? (v1.03) created with QuizFarm.com

I have got a fairly cosmopolitan view of life and the same can be applied to music as well. I enjoy any music that my auditory senses like at that moment. I enjoy listening to Malayalam songs, especially the ones in the 80’s, a few Hindi songs ( most of the new ones suck) etc. But most of my airtime is used up Rock music. Rock in the sense can range from rock n roll to speed metal. My friends and family usually lambaste me for my taste in music. Especially my family who actually think I am some post modern geek with no attachment to our culture or family. Believe me it hurts me a lot! I have always felt this strange but beautiful attachment towards my family (not just my parents, my cousins, aunts etc) and I am a strong proponent of preserving the cultural values . People misunderstand me a lot. Music has been my savior. I became really matured and level headed due to music only. I could went out my aggression by listening to music and I believe it has worked wonders on my character. S...

Now for the second part! The next day was Pattus Birthday. ( no I didnt forget to use the nick). All of the guys decided to give him a good "kani" (refer the movie Meesha Madhavan) at the daybreak. All of them were sitting really hard not to fall asleep. Ass time came nearer, oops!,as time came nearer Palmer and Arhie passed out. The others went and showed their "Softwares and Hardwares" and gave Pattu a pants as his gift. Suddenly someone came and told that Palmer had thrown up. They went to the room and it was nasty. Rajguru cleaned up with the help of Garfield. Now everyone wanted to go to sleep. The room mate of Palmer and Archie was left. Rajguru asked him," You can handle things here, right?" "right(hic!)" "Ok then Iam going" The mate made a bed out of a chair and sofa. He switched off the lights then tripped on a bag to fall, luckily into his makeshift bed and passed out...

Everyone was in really good spirits by now. A lot of noise and many declarations followed. "iam that. iam this. iam shit u are good" etc Rajguru made an announcement. "This is one of my last hangouts and I thank u all guys.U are really lucky.............So i make the complete expense of tonight on myself" "Wah! Rajguru Wah!" ,came the encore. The room was clear except the close circle. Rajguru said," Who is coming to see Delhi at night with me?" "me! me! me!", the encore. "Ok lets go." It was drizzling outside. They got an umbrella from reception. Neo said," Da I want my umbrella. I'll get sick otherwise." "Oh get it fast a$$****!",said Garfield impatiently and followed Neo. Now garfield had to take the stairs as neo left by the lift. But Garfield was consipicously missing from the room. "He was really paambu. Where did he go?", thought Garfield hoping he did not go into any strang...

Now it was time to raise the ‘spirits’. Unfortunately the booze shops were closed that day. A cycle rickshaw guy promised us to get to a ‘single window’ shop to buy the stuff. So Rajguru and Hogan went with him. Now Garfield was out walking with Samson and Neo. He bought a packet of More cigarette which he was eyeing for a while. The cigarette was long and brown in color. Suddenly someone wanted to try a puff and four cigarettes were lighted. Someone left after a single puff saying he wanted only one puff. Garfield was stranded with two cigarettes, one in each hand. The people on the street were eyeing him with disgust. They walked along and found Mr. Perfect, Ilayaraja and Daddy cool on the opposite side. Garfield waved at Mr. Perfect and handed him the extra fag. They were now smoking and arguing with a hawker about the price regarding a short. Neo suddenly wanted to drink some Cappuccino coffee when he heard about it from Perfect. Garfield and Neo went to the Nescafe shop and bought...

In Durbar Hotel our first task was to assign rooms. As we were late in booking we couldn’t get rooms in the same floor. After taking care of the girls and most guys, we were left with two rooms and seven of us. Me, Sreenath, Panackal, Anand, Divakar, Kiran and Rakeshettan. We got rooms at the top most floor. The condition of the room was horrific. Really small rooms and no ventilation! They were supposed to be A/C rooms but converted later on. The workers quarters was nearby. The only breath of fresh air came when we saw a gorgeous chick walking around. We didn’t see her later though   : - (. I went to call home (the train was late by some 4 hours) as I hadn’t spoke to my parents since leaving TVM (I don’t have a cell phone). It was raining heavily and I and Sree borrowed an Umbrella from the reception. We saw a Pan shop nearby and got the urge to try pan. We did not know any thing about the varieties and only wanted something very mild. I blurted Meetha Paan and the guy made ...

This study leave has been pretty long. Though the study part can be safely eliminated. My time has been spent sleeping, reading (or both) and gaming. First, it was Farcry, then Diablo II and then Civilization III. But I grew tired after a while and stopped playing thse games. One day, I dusted out UT2004 and I started playing. I had started a single player campaign long time back and I continued that. I really had a blast with the game. The graphics are awesome and the physics too. But the most significant thing is the gameplay. It simply rocks! You have a pretty decent qualification round and then you are to play four modes to unlock the championship. You have to do some management here by hiring and releasing your team members. As the game progresses you do gain access to some pretty good bots. The four ladders are CTF (capture the flag), Double domination, Assault and Bombing run. CTF was pretty easy though I lost one match owing to my carelessness. Double Domination was a refreshin...

You scored as Beyonce . Maybe you don't like her. But she must be your kind! Beyonce 83% Jennifer Aniston 78% Jennifer Lopez 78% Cameron Diaz 61% Britney Spears 45% What sexy actress would you date? (Now bigger pictures) created with QuizFarm.com I would have Jenny Aniston though. But I am happy with Beyonce. And plz no J Lo or Britney. You scored as Jimi Hendrix . You are Jimi Hendrix! The pioneer of electric guitar and inspiration to all great guitar gods! Jimi Hendrix 85% Slash 70% Billie Joe Armstrong 60% James Hetfield 50% Ozzy Osbourne! 35% Kurt Cobain 30% Tommy Lee 15% What Bad Ass Rock Legend Are you? *with pictures* created with QuizFarm.com Ya baby! Me the man. The one guy who started it all. I am in a 'purple haze' now! Who is this Billie Joe Armstrong anyway? Slash is cool, Hetfield, Ozzy, Cobain too are gr8. Don't know much about Tommy Lee except his love life. You scored as Air Force . Cross into the blue, soldier, because you belong in the U.S. Air For...

Upon the arrival at Delhi Railway Station it was confusion galore. We had called Panicker’s Travels, our tour operator, from the train. Now we got down at the station and had no idea what to do next. Paru’s uncle had come there too. After a few frantic calls the travels guy told us to come to the entrance of the station. This platform was the 12th one and we had to walk to the 1st. Pretty easy, when considering the luggage we were carrying and extremely easy when we take into account of the girls baggages too. The boys took whatever luggage as possible and started towards the entrance. The girl’s followed with the rest of the stuff. It would have been easier if the railways had kept a taxi service in the platform. Believe me it is that distant! So, torn and wearied us, dumped our bags at the entrance. What greeted us was not a pretty sight. The humanity here seemed to come from the lower echelons and there were quite a few suspicious characters. The roads seemed to be waterlogged and t...

Now is the time for a little hide and seek. I am going to present a report on the decadence on the rails. I am not going to use the real names of the concerned. You have to guess who is who. Just in case… Most of them had the dreams and aspirations to be decadent for a lifetime and then stop the vices completely (duh!). So burdened by these aspiring thoughts, the boyz boarded the train. All was alright for a long time. The Rajguru was quiet. Major guguholics like Thirupaachi where down with fever or pretty contented like Garfield, Archie, Kobra, Kattabuji in incessant sugar beating. After some time Garfield found the class Gentlemanyan’s behavior to be quite odd, laughing in a peculiar manner and other odd expressions. Suddenly he felt that irresistible pull towards a magnetic force and found Archie, Palmer and Kobra had recharged. Rajguru was all in smiles. Garfield had his recharge as well. Chota Recharge! Full Talktime! Rajguru asked others, “Hows our Gentlemanyan and Gaanagandharv...

Cant keep my hands of these stufff... here goes some more... You scored as Neo, the "One" . Neo is the computer hacker-turned-Messiah of the Matrix. He leads a small group of human rebels against the technology that controls them. Neo doubts his ability to lead but doesn't want to disappoint his friends. His goal is for a world where all men know the Truth and are free from the bonds of the Matrix. Neo, the "One" 100% Indiana Jones 96% Lara Croft 79% William Wallace 79% James Bond, Agent 007 79% Batman, the Dark Knight 75% Maximus 71% Captain Jack Sparrow 63% El Zorro 63% The Terminator 58% The Amazing Spider-Man 54% Which Action Hero Would You Be? v. 2.0 created with QuizFarm.com Of all people, i got the sissy boy. Its Ok but I loved to be Jack Sparrow or Jones... You scored as Metallica . You are a Metal Licka! You are one cool, oldschool dude! You love the raw beauty of greats whether it be an appreciation for a fine wine, or a fine lady. You have the rythe...

Se7en S1ns You scored as Pride . Pride 94% Wrath 69% Sloth 69% Envy 56% Gluttony 56% Lust 56% Greed 6% Seven deadly sins created with QuizFarm.com i am not that proud...and wrath...plz comeon i forgive everybody...and sloth-true very true... Expected more on lust though... My Death... You scored as Disappear . Your death will be by disappearing, probably a camping trip gone wrong or an evening hike you never returned from. Always remeber that one guy who was hiking alone and got in a rock slide. He could have died, but he cut his own hand off to save himself. Don't end up like him (or worse, dead). Posion 87% Disappear 87% Stabbed 73% Cut Throat 67% Gunshot 67% Suffocated 67% Drowning 67% Disease 60% Suicide 53% Accident 47% Eaten 47% Natural Causes 40% Bomb 40% How Will You Die?? created with QuizFarm.com Probably true...but who is going to poison, shoot and stab me? I am a harmless creature... Harry Potter Character! You scored as Albus Dumbledore . Strong and powerful you...

This Is My Life, Rated Life: 7.5 Mind: 7.5 Body: 5.7 Spirit: 9.6 Friends/Family: 3.7 Love: 2.9 Finance: 5.5 Take the Rate My Life Quiz I think a pretty good rating. Dhanya said she scored 8.2. I would have liked a bit more on lovelife and friends/Family! Your Birthdate: June 12 You're a dynamic, charismatic person who's possibly headed for fame. You tend to charm strangers easily. And you usually can get what you want from them. Verbally talented, you tend to persuade people with your speaking and writing. You are affectionate and loving, but it's hard for you to commit to any one relationship. Your strength: Your charm Your weakness: Your extreme manipulation tactics Your power color: Indigo Your power symbol: Four leaf clover Your power month: December What Does Your Birth Date Mean? By Jove ! It is very true. Verbally talented, manipulative, non-commital... On Average, You Would Sell Out For $1,101,587 Who wouldnt sell out for this amount of money? But honestly, I...

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