Natural Healing

Woke up with a heavy heart in the morning...
Technically speaking it was my mobile phone alerting me to wake up.
Scrambled up and found a message from my cousin as a part of his celebration on the Italian victory.
Hadn't watched the match (or any match for the record). Was glad Italy won as I was their silent supporter for the match.
Besides I used to be the Italian one in our romantic imaginations in school by picking a world power that you controlled.

But...I felt terrible...not physically but I had such a bad feeling in my mind...Don't know of what...
Slept for some more time after waking up mother...Still felt bad after waking up again...Infact the feeling was stifling me...
Thought I was tired after yesterdays mad running around...Thought a hot bath would clear my mind...

I bathe in hot water in the mornings...(Hot as H.O.T...boil the water to 100 degrees and then cool it to 80...) I revel in hot water...eases my brain and loosens the stiff body...

Still the feeling got worse...I was feeling such a heavy heart that I was very subdued and my mother did notice...I am usually very cocky in the mornings and boss over her.

Got out of the house and started walking...I reached the bus stop and realised it was rather futile to attend the class today...I would not be concentrating and I hate not giving my best to things I like.
Started walking aimlessly...First thought of going to temple...then decided against it...may be someone I know would see me there...
Walked to the museum...have'nt been there for a while...It used to be our meeting place till some 2 years back...
Started feeling more awful as memories swept over me...the memories right from childhood to yesterday...

Thankfully the benches were deserted...They were still damp with the early morning dew or was it a sprinkle of rain?
Sat on a bench and started thinking...After a while my mind was blank...So decided to look around...
That was when I found my healer...

Sky was partly cloudy and the sun peeped in and out...
Sunshine was going on and off on the brown ground...
The early morning sun has some heat and this on and off heat was trying to tell me something...
Then I saw a Mynah...seeing a single Mynah is said to inauspicious...anyway didn't think of it then...
It was pecking around finding its breakfast...
A squirrel came by and jumped into the bench opposite of mine...
Looking into the holes in the bench trying to find something to eat...then it jumped down...
It was startled tosee me and walked cautiosly under each of the opposite benches...
Taking up all scraps and examining them...Checking on me at regular intervals...
After a while it dissapeared from my site...
Two Mynahs came by...two are said to be auspicious...So I guess it cancels out...
They were pecking around in an idyllic manner...
Our squirrel appeared again...this time it found something on the grass it had passed by earlier...Visibly happy it was munching on something...
A young couple (the human kind this time...) walked straight into its presence and the squirrel ran away terrified...it had walked by the food earlier and if only it hadn't...
A gush wind swept over me...so relaxing...and I felt the weight of my heart lifting...
Felt much better...

Sat for some more time...
Then suddenly a sprinkle of rain came...as if it was reprimanding me for my aimless thoughts and urging me to move on....
Decided to walk on now...
Strolled around the place...At one particular area I saw two squirrels...One was leading the other and almost daring it to cross the road (only people walk here...) The first one heeded none and ran away without giving any concern to me or three persons walking behind me...
The second one however was shocked and choked out of crossing...

After exiting the place I felt refreshed and healed...Went to have some breakfast and decided to stay at a cafe till it is safe to go home again...

My interpretations of all these things were a reflection of what I have felt and seen around me...Gave me a perspective to think beyond the petty feelings...
If you can't grasp what I have written then I apologise...