Confessions of a Dangerous Mind

End of another year. 2008. I can still myself writing the date on my notebooks in school. 1991, 1992 and so on...How quickly time passes! How all of us have grown up and dealing with the issues grown ups do! Talks of money, marriage, and recession take a lot of our time. The time devoted to talking about the lighter side of life is dwindling by the day! This year brought me many joys and a lot more pain. I guess this is life. I took a 3 day break from work for the new year and enjoying being a blissfully lazy bum at home. Have to return tomorrow and reluctant to do so! Listening to Pink Floyd's High Hopes now. Reminds me of the several posts I have not written yet. Lets hope I will get to it soon, now that I am taking my PC to Bangalore. Wishing all of you a happy and healthy 2009! P.S: Beware! 2012 is nearing! :P

There are certain situations, no matter what you do, you just cannot fix it. The broken remains stare at you, a very tired you. You explore other possibilities. None seem good enough. But you just cannot let this go. A massive tug occurs in your heart every time you think about it. You try to bury yourself in work only to realize its better off not screwing up that part of your life. Besides, there is nothing much to do. You try to listen to music and your miss your collection. You find yourself stifled by the head phones. You spend a fortune on getting a high end headset only to keep on staring it. People say you are crazy. Yup. You probably are...You realise that you are turning into an undead inside...neither dead, nor alive...words keep ringing in your head... I blind my eyes and try and force it all into place, I stitch them up, see not my fall from grace I blind my eyes, I hide and feel it passing me by, I open just in time to say goodbye (from the song That was just your life by...

Yup...I am in a 5 star hotel. The overpriced, expensive shit that people seem to fantasize. Expensive would be a slight word to term things over here. I am bankrupt due to certain unforeseen circumstances. Hopefully, I will get a "bailout" tomorrow. 2 hours of Internet cost a fat sum of 400 Rs! No wifi, just plain old wired net. This is all fucked up man! Overpriced booze sits untouched in the mini bar. Only bright side? I figured out the bath and going to have a dip in the hot tub. Ciao!

Wake up everyday, Make the dash to get the pay. Outside I watch the dogs, Reveling their mention in the blogs. Then I ask the juice man, Make it grapes today I am in a run, Obliges he chats up, About all happenings and stuff. I gulp down the liquid and nods to his rant, Discuss what to do about the slant. Off to the roads daring my life, One of these days I'll be in a strife. Drivers go about like its their last day, Murderous looks they give as if in a play. Somehow reach the other side, Watch the pretty ladies wondering they up for a ride. Admonish self for the lust, Lure of Asmodeus overcomes lest.

It was a week in which nothing made sense. Bloodshed, mayhem, 24x7 news coverage...Probably only thing expected was the political mud slinging. But beyond the human factor, this incident did not make sense from a geo-political perspective. Pakistan Government or even the ISI would have to be out of their minds to plan such an attack. Attack in the sense, not the scale but the targets. There have been numerous attacks on Indian soil. Some fronted by home grown terror outfits others by radical organisations outside India. First of all, we can discount the following allegations: Sangh parivar perpetrated the whole thing. (Load of crap!) Israel did it! (Like they have nothing else to do!) America did it! (Duh!) What all the current evidences and previous experiences suggest is that the operation was carried out by Lashkar with/without the help of Al Queda. We can also deduce from our experiences that the ISI had some hand or the other in this operation. What was their motivation apart from...