Won't publish without title! Damn!

Sound of heavy metal ringing in my ears...
Loud...Very loud...still not enough to smother my mind from thinking...thoughts that make me uneasy...depressed...

Judas Priest...ironic name...Worshipper of Judas...the caretaker of Judas...whatever...betrayal of the divine...the divine and pure half of my self...

Rains lashing outside...or is it over? Anyway its cold...switching off the fan has done no good...its hot now...stuffiness rather.

Heat seems to be seething from within...brain is going numb and active intermittently (Nah, I am not drunk!)

A shadow...a big shadow looms over my heart...gnawing me...pricking me...a bloodless torture...

Need more air...need my oxygen...where is it?

Switched the music to Enya...will it help?

My favourite albums

5.Metallica-The Black Album

This album brought metal to mainstream. May be a little ligher than their earlier material, but this is one kickass album.
Song after song, classic metal stuff in one song.
Enter Sandman...
Sad but True...
Where ever I may roam...
The Unforgiven...

4. Guns N Roses-Appetite for Destruction

The best selling debut album of all time!
It brought about the then 'Worlds most dangerous band' tag to GnR...
A great hard rock album...
All the songs kick ass with the rawness and attitude...
Sex, Drugs and Rock N Roll unleashed in all its glory!
My favourite is Sweet Child O Mine...one of the greatest ballads of all time...
GNR could never get better than this. This raised the bar a trifle too much!

3.Cream- I Feel Free-Ultimate Cream

I was in two minds here...Whether to put Disraeli Gears or this one...
I got DG pretty recently and lost it in the hard drive crash. But this one's been with me for a long time.
I know its not nice to mention a compilation, but hey! Its my blog!
This one contains the best material from their three albums...
Cream was a seminal 60's band...the best bass and vocals (Jack Bruce), the best guitar(Eric Clapton) and the best drums (Ginger Baker). They had services of Pete Brown, an English poet. Together they created some of the best psychedelic stuff of all time.
Sunshine of your love (my favourite of all time and big factor in bringing this album here)...
I Feel Free
Tales of the brave Ullysseus
Crossroads
One of the greatest guitar solos (Crossroads) and one of the greatest bass line of all time (Sunshine of your love) in the same album..what more do you want?

2. The Doors-The Doors

The debut album by The Doors...
The psychedelic masterwork. The sound of the Doors is very unique and there is no other band like it. According to me, the only band with that kind of distinction is Jethro Tull.
The vocals of Jim Morrison is nearly divine and his songwriting is on the top level.
So many classics...
'Break on Through to the Other side'
'Soul Kitchen'
'Crystal Ship' (my current favourite!)
'Twentieth Century Fox'
and the Oedipus like incestful 'The End'
It would have come to the top if not for the album below!

1. The Beatles-Sgt Pepper's Lonely Hearts Club Band

The best album of all time!
No question about it...Sgt Pepper's has featured in numerous best album's list, most often grabbing the top spot.
This album showed the world, the possibility of a rock album. The songs showcase the spirit of the generation. The swinging 60's...
The hippie era, where the young people tried to change the world...
The psychedelic drugs ruled the roost and this was probably the first psychedelic album.
Track by Track this is an awesome album...
And this album made of use of lot of instruments and atmosphere noise...

Starts of with a rocker of a song, the eponymous 'Sgt Pepper's lonely hearts club band', filled with pompous band (the trumpet kind) sounds and atmosphere noise. A great guitar by George Harrison and vocals by Paul McCartney.
Says to the listener..."Hey we are a great band!"
Then fades into one of my favourite songs, 'With a little help from my friends" (the song was used for a commercial of Paragon(?) canvas shoes in the early 90's, one with a boy forgetting his canvas shoes to school and his dog bringing it to school) Ringo's voice really is superb here.
'Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds'...a brilliant psychedelic song...mind blowing to say the least...Lennon at his best.
'Getting Better' A cover version was used for Philips Commercials earlier...
Song writing Masterpiece...optimistic lines by McCartney laced with cynicism of Lennon
'When I am sixty four' a simple, elegant and lovely song by McCartney...He wrote this during his teens...
'Within You Without You' Its really hard to say its an english pop song! Seems like a Hindustani Song! Indian Instruments used in entirety. Harrison made this with the help of Ravi Shankar

All the songs are great! I just mentioned a few here...

Zahir...



I finished reading Zahir last week. A great book. This is the second book that I have read of Paulo Coelho, the first being Alchemist.
The book is written from a first person point of view.
Spiritual as you may expect.
This novel deals with obsession (that is somewhat the meaning of Zahir (an Arabic word)), love and happiness.
The author gives us a lot of food for thought. What is happiness?

I have been asking this myself for a long time. What defines a happy state?
Sure, I am not saying that I am a dumb loser who is bawling all the time.
Still, when I think about my happy times...

Winning something. I confess, it gives me a big rush. But then again, also a sense of insecurity. I have to keep up with this or else I would be booed. (Booed by who? That's another question altogether.)
Being with my loved ones. The very antagonistic...Not being with them...Losing them forever...Creeps up when I sink into being happy.
Sharing my thoughts with special people in the wee hours of the night...Makes me happy. But what if I screw up? There goes that happiness...

Now...take some trivial things...

Listening to my favourite music...
Makes me feel good. I tend to raise volume when some lovely parts come. Now what if I become deaf? Takes the pleasure away?

Having a cigarette. Gets a kick. Happiness...but it gets washed away after a little while. Getting cancer is a trivial matter. Did someone see me? Do I smell of tobacco? Blame it on the subsiding of the nicotine effect...But still...

Exhilaration of going at a high speed. Happiness clouded by the prospect of accident.

I can site numerous more instances...
But all things have a common point. At no particular point of time I am at a state of a total happiness.
Now what does those ill feelings point to?
What are the repurchase if something bad happens?

Now let me get back to the 'booed by who' question which cropped up earlier.
That's the root.
The fear of being booed. Booed in the sense, not being howled at. But finding yourself not good enough in front of people whom you wished would acknowledge you forever.
Not just one person or two, but a whole bunch of people at different circumstances, under different perspectives...
Some may be people whom I place as very important in my life...Some just for fact that they should know that I am better than them...

That is my obsession...My Zahir...

Feels Narcissistic? Very. I know that.
But how do I conquer it?
Doing things to please my obsession. In this process forgetting what really makes me happy?
Frankly, I have no idea what I really want...shadows are there...shadows of my real needs...
I have been able to write this because for a split moment I was free of my Zahir...I can feel it gripping me again...

I would succumb...just about...now...

This post started of as a review of The Zahir...I guess I got carried away...still I am posting it..

Most Romantic Proposal Ever!

Dear Friends

If you have'nt read this, this and this, please don't. They are filled with untruth and may harm your good hearts.
Atleast this is said to be the final post in this series (Me: For now! >:) )

Pappu

P.S: I am coming home on 19th. So savour this blog for now...it may not be updated after that...


Time: Lunch Break
Venue: Class

Pappu and his friends are waiting for the dame to come...
Finally she arrives...
Pappu looks at her...she bats her eyelashes...and smiles at him....Neo winks at him and urges him ownwards...the ladies pep him up...
Finally...

Pappu: errr...hmmm...err...
Garfield: Want to go to bathroom?
Pappu: (in his trademark husky voice) Dame...
Dame: *bats her eyelashes...approaches*
Pappu: *legs failing*
Garfield to others: I think he is gonna shit here and now!

Pappu: (in his trademarked husky voice) Dame...
Dame:*still batting her eyelashes* Yes...
Pappu: Dame...
Dame:*now batting of eyelashes is a little slowed down* Yes...

Neo prods Pappu

Pappu: Graphicsinethra mark kitti? (How much did you score for Graphics)

(For the uninitiated...the first graphics series test was a disaster...a very few had passed...and Pappu was one of those assholes and unfortunately our Dame was crying the previous day because she didn't)

Dame:*visibly annoyed* 30...
Pappu:*with a fucked up look* Ok...
Dame walks back with a puffy red face...

Neo falls down on his ass with a bang.

Pappu: Guys! I swear I will tell the next time...Sure!
All of them decided to leave him alone for now...

Venue: The lounge
Time: A short break

The time was ideal, told Neo...Pappu was pumped up...
No one was around...Dame and her friend approaced the stairs...The friend was engaged by Neo...

Dame: *bats her eyelashes*
Pappu: (in his trademarked husky voice) Dame...
Dame: *bats her eyelashes*
Pappu: (in his trademarked husky voice) Dame...
Dame: Yes...
Pappu: Graphicsinethra mark kitti? (How much did you score for Graphics)
Dame:*very annoyed* 30

Dame starts to walk off...Neo starts the bang his head against the wall

Pappu with a new surgence of spirit
Pappu: Dame!
Dame looks back...Pappu smiles a lavish bright smile!

Pappu: Dame, nee linadichitundo? (roughly translates to "Kabhi Line maari kya?"or "Ever had a fling?' or something like that...in short...very crude!)
Dame: *shocked* No!
Neo is stunned and waivering.

Pappu: *visibly happy* Appo nammukku line adikaamo? (roughly translates to "Hum line maarenge?" or "So lets have a fling!" or something like that...very romantic isn't it?)
Dame: *dumbstruck* *simply walks in a daze*

Neo is unconsius.


There ended Pappu's tale of the most romantic proposal ever...
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or so we thought...

Yours truly is in possession of incriminating evidence from Hutch, Bangalore that they are seriously considering stopping the corporate offer of Hutch to Hutch mobile calls free due to the presence of a walking Hutch tower near Leela Palace...

and 19th eh?
Don't forget to bring me a Smirnoff! We will discuss this over some fine Vodka!


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